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FUCK.

I'm eternally fucked.

There's something I've got to say, but I can't find the correct words to squish it into.

So instead I smoke cigarettes, eat chocolate, watch meaningless tv shows on DVD 'cause I haven't got the patience for a full movie, and yell occasionally.

IT'S NOT HELPING!!!

T33n G1rl Squ4dx0rx!!

You gotta watch the new Teen Girl Squad. It made me lol. Srrsly.

universal cinerea for the earthbound

It's raining in Nashville today.

Power's out downtown; at work they sent all the servers home. So instead of checking the level of sweet tea in businessmen's glasses, I check things off my to-do list titled "Important!" Run errands, make plans for my best friend's birthday, feel slightly anesthetized... It's surprising how slow the day crawls by when you get up at nine and don't have anything to do. I'd forgotten.

I've got enough time to mope, if it weren't for pre-planned $3 pitchers tonight, Katelin's party. Not that I'd rather lock myself at home, it's just.....

What I need(want), I can't have, so instead I barrel onward, distracting myself with the money spent, the cigarettes smoked, the laughter emitted..... It's quite bizarre.

(I feel helpless, sleeping at best, waiting for your return...

you're never coming home.)

all of you just make me feel like screaming.