Does That Ever Happen? Is it Real? Would I Want it if it Was?

I think God is an asshole.



And if these empty-headed girls don't stop playing Snow Patrol soon,

slitting my throat would seem oh-so-attractive,

if I wasn't "raised on it,"

if I was numb.



How much better numbness seems!, when I have already been injured twice tonight. Once I was numb, but it was a long time I ago, and I forget. I only remember it scared me, a Dracula enveloping my shadows in spite of a bright, summer, porch-picnic afternoon.

It is good that I am too afraid of elevators to ride to the 32nd floor. "The Moment has lead to some pretty stupid things happening." And Impulse is all-consuming.